Hello fellow followers (well one currently)
Wow that was a long silence between blogs and for this I must reflect on my consuming work life which seems to take over at a moment's notice to only leave me with so little time for my very own.
I don't know when I noticed life's little lessons.... although I remember when mom and dad used to say things like 'you will learn one day' and 'you won't understand until your older'! Well, guess what? They were right all along :)
I suppose my life lessons started when I first felt pain, heartache I mean, real broken down, broken in half, absolutely devastating to the heart kind of stuff. I am a great believer that feeling all of this pain is absolutely and without a shadow of a doubt; essential to move forward in life and learn about who you really are. Before my first experience of heartache I thought I was sad, not being able to go out when I like, my relationships coming to an end, a boy not liking me, whatever the story...they were so sad....NOT! Boy was I in for a realisation. When my husband left me I was only 25 and I had moved clear across the world to be with him from USA to good old England! I was only 20; so did I know any better? NO and guess what? My mom told me so at the time, but I wouldn't listen and of course I should not have listened as its my life to live, learn and move forward with.
I have to say that when my marriage broke down I had never, ever felt this sort of pain, stress, sadness, EVER! I didn't eat for weeks, took a leave of absence from work, didn't leave the house for almost 3 weeks and didn't even see the sunshine for days on end. I couldn't stop thinking about how sad it was, wallowing in my own sorrows and not actually seeing any positivity in what was happening to me. Until one day I woke up and looked out the window to see a glorious bright sunny sky and it just hit me, just like that I felt better! I started to think about how amazing my friends were, how lucky I was to be living in England, what a great job I had, how healthy I was and how now I could just be me again and do what I want to do to repair myself, my heart, my life! What in god's name was I thinking letting all of those glorious days, hours, minutes pass me by when this is my life and I will never, ever get those days back :)
Well, the good news is (thank god I did) I learned so much from that moment on. I opened myself up to see the light and yes, of course I was sad, but then I was happy! Estatically happy until my next lesson, but what I am trying to say is that we all have hard times and they are good, they are great! We have to look at every part of our life, every moment and what happens (no matter how awful it is) and take the good away from what is happening to us. We have to be out of the bubble and able to control our feelings as to not allow ourselves to fall apart! (although sometimes a day of falling apart is necessary)! A night out with the boys and a bottle of whiskey or a night out with the girls and disco dancing in a hot new outfit! Whatever it takes, let it go, get it out and start enjoying your life again :)
I don't care what you are going through, how hard, how difficult, its all part of the process of life and we must experience each of these emotions in equal so that we can eventually be at peace with a whole 100% being of ourselves. There are 1,000s of lessons out there every day to help us get through life and so many of us just let them pass by, right through our fingers. These lessons are like air to us; without them we cannot survive and we will continue to attract the same old lessons of life to learn time and time again.
So, let there be love, let there be pain, let there be happiness and let us be insane, because it all leads to one wonderful place of peace within ourselves to enjoy this wonderful life (our wonderful lives)! You must also think about others and what they are going through because sometimes when you have experienced a tragedy such as illness or death; you are now at a different level of experiencing emotion and may see things in such a different way. As this has occured you may hear people complaining about their lives, such as long work hours or the weather...whatever it is; your first reaction will be "what the hell r they talking about" and of course you may be right! But remember that we all experience pain, emotions at different times in our lives and on different levels; therefore everyone is trying to do the best they can at that very moment. Try to accept people for who they are and maybe help them to see the lighter side of life with your experience, but also remember when to let them go and see the light for themselves.
We cannot help everyone, but there will always be those whom we love so much in life that need us; and our energy is precious so let it go when you know the relationship is one that you respect, admire and love. Remember that this is your life and even though there are so many people that are a part of our lives, you have only one life to live and it is precious, so do it for you!
To some it may sound selfish and to be honest it is, but until you start to focus on you and love yourself inside and out you will never have the life you truly are capable of. So, open your eyes, experience emotions on all levels and learn these lessons in life to keep with you forever!
All I can say is that after the first moment of this emotional pain, I look back now and wonder who that person was. I was vurnerable to everything, everyone and now I am strong, happy, loving and see so many things in such different ways, better ways that make me smile every day! Remember, all that you reflect YOU ARE so send out positive energy and your life will be fulfilled with more than you could ever imagine. Once we understand that life is sometimes out of our control and people also have to go through their own personal tragedies, we'll stop blaming others and stop trying to change the world! We can only do what we can, but believe me it is the little things that matter.
So, watch out for lives little lessons because they are everywhere. Embrace every moment of life and don't take anything for granted! I continue on this path and I believe that I am truly blessed with so much in life. I love my life and I want you to love yours!!!!
Signing off, only for now from the lighter side!!!
Little Miss 'S' xxx
